its june?!

so i fail at this updating the blog thing. i don't really know if anyone reads this, but sorry! things have been super busy lately and i haven't had time to update. the past two weeks i've been in a renal (kidney) rotation seeing end stage renal disease patients and acute renal failure patients. it has been really sad...kidney disease is nasty. dialysis, although fascinating, is nasty as well. i pray that i always have healthy kidneys and never have to deal with that! its bad. i start at a dialysis center for the next two weeks which will be interesting. i start my peds rotation in 2 weeks too...i cant WAIT. i miss being around kids, its like something i crave almost! i LOVE kids. i can't imagine doing this job and not ever being around kids for my career. so i guess its good i at least know vaguely the area i want to work in....because i have no clue with anything else haha

i've had some of the best couple of past weekends! i've been home a ton, saw kimberly over memorial day (basically lived at her house) and got to see jordan this weekend after a month of not seeing him. i realize a month really isn't THAT much...but its still a while. i am not a big fan of it! sam's wedding is next weekend and im SUPER excited! i cant believe its actually happening!!!! we went to dinner at the melting pot last night for her bachloerette party and it was AMAZING. seriously, im obsessed. only four weeks til HH too...i can't wait for a week at the beach and a week with jordan. it will be relaxation that i most definatley need and time with j that is much needed as well.

perfect weekend.

i have the best mom ever. tina came and spent the weekend with me and it was perrrrfect. we went to dinner and watched a movie friday. we went shopping alllll day saturday (not many people could handle that much in one day!) and had delllicious crab cakes for lunch and coldstone for dinner (after walking around forrrever to find it). we went to ann arbor today to the UM botanical gardens, which were a little disappointing, but it was fun and a nice day out nonetheless. tina got me my first hanging basket of flowers for our porch, so im praying i dont kill them :) it was such a relaxing weekend and im thankful that one of my best friends is my mom...a lot of people dont have that.

i start my renal rotation tomorrow...say a prayer for me! im nervous because i know the least about renal, kidneys, and all that...its very complicated and nutrition plays a big role. which is good, but i feel unprepared and don't want to look like the dumb intern. we'll see how it goes!! cant wait for the weekend already- i getta see my family and my bffaeae from boston!!!! yayyy!!!! AND canterbury opens!!! oh and 20 days til sam's wedding...CRAZY. crazy how life flies by. god is SO good!

sigh.

this is my last week of school foodservice, thank goodness. its not that i don't like the people, because i do, they are great, its just a little boring. i start my renal rotation next weekend which will be interesting...thats the area that i feel like i know the least in since it's all so complicated.

my car isn't totaled which is good...the lima bean just needs a loooot of repair work. hopefully she still runs like new when i get her back. $1000 more dollars of damage and she would have been a gonner. stupid drivers. now im driving a 4 door hatchback yaris that looks funny, i names it the black bean haha. i've never been in an accident like that and it was so scary, and it really was quite minor in the grand scheme of things. lucky i had someone looking out for me.

we're about half way through this internship and i am really struggling. im trying to enjoy my time here and not be just looking forward to it being over. but i really am ready to be done...im trying to dig up patience i have stored away because i still have a while to go and lots of things to learn. im tired of being away from people i care about mostly. BUT i have a lot of fun weekends with people i love coming up so im looking forward to those :)

eek! so i haven't written here in a while! the past few weeks have been kind of crazy busy. i've had an exam and presentation last week and a quilt to finish! haha and throw in there training for a half marathon too...needless to say im exhausted. i've been working in my school foodservice rotation the past couple of weeks in birmingham, mi which has been a GREAT drive (its like 5 min away). i love the people i am working with. dave, the manager, is so funny and really cool to work with. he's shown me all the cool places in birminham to run haha today i worked at a food expo type of thing where 40 or so vendors bring samples of their products and you go around and get tonnnns of samples. i came home with 2 grocery bags full of food! hooray for free things!

they also had a reeeeally good speaker talking about being thankful for all the little blessings we have and how important our attitudes towards the little things in our everyday lives are and how that rubs off onto others. he was awesome. he talked about a girl who was 17 and had just been adopted a year ago and had been in like 48 foster homes or something crazy like that. her dad had tried to kill her when she was 3 and her mom was in jail for murder. yet she wanted to forgive her dad and tell him she loved him. she gave her mom her email and has been waiting a year and a half to have comunication with her. the speaker talked about how she was always smiling and how great it was to be loved by her family now...how crazy is that?? i can't even imagine the type of selflessness you would need to be able to do that.

this weekend was the flying pig half marathon and it was perfect! the run was great, and i am super pumped to do my marathon in october now!! hooray! i got to see my best friends ever for a whole weekend too. it was perfect. i have the perfect friends. i wish everyone could have a group of friends like ours. i miss miami so much too!! and people watching to see the ridiculous miami girls that go there haha. im super pumped for the weekend to see my little sister in my old prom dress and for sam's wedding shower!!

bliss.

this weekend was pure bliss. i know a lot of people think they have the best friends ever, but im here to tell you all that i in fact, do have the best friends ever ever ever. so i was headed home after class friday (which we got out early from!) and was super excited to see my family and jordan! i got a pizza w/ my dad and got home...jordan was there outside with tina so i was excited he was there! we walk in the house and i turn the corner and there on my couch is colby and addy. i was SHOCKED. i was almost shaking, almost crying, almost falling to the ground because i have NO idea they were coming. everyone else did of course. :) they drove almost 13 hours-ish the weekend before their finals week to see me, just for my birthday! how perfect are they?! i felt pretty special. j and i camped out in my backyard sat night and that was a blast too :) OH and nick and beth got engaged this weekend...SO excited for them!!!!

same old thing this week at work...almost done with my final week of clinical three, which is nuts. onto school food service next week which will be a nice break from clinical for a while. im not so sure this is what i want to do for the rest of my life, nor what the Lord is going to have me do for the rest of my life. i struggle every day with feeling as if im doing anything productive, or if im having an impact on anybody, or if anybody at the hospital (doctors, nurses) takes dietitians seriously. er. its frustrating.

i had the best weekend ever and felt so loved and didn't want it to end. two weeks til we're all reunited again! can't wait! God is pretty cool.

la di da.

i hate snow. period. i am SO sick of it!!!! it snoooowed monday and tuesday, its freaking april! come on now. i am in my third and final clinical at harper hospital and its been going alright so far. im with an RD who is my age...shes super intelligent and almost done with her masters degree already, so she's been really helpful and easy to talk to since we're the same age. i've done a lot of tube feeding recommendations for patients and TPN (total parenteral nutrition, feeding someone through an IV) recs as well, which i am very interested in so thats been cool! i've seen some sad stuff too...the patients at this hospital which is downtown, are a lot sicker and usually not in the best economic situations.

and i have realized i am super super against gastric bypass surgery. there's 2 types, roux-en-y which involes making a tiny stomach pouch and bypassing the upper half or so of the small intestine and the lap band, which is reversible and isn't so invasive. for the REST of their ENTIRE lives...they cannot have white bread, rice, stuffing (all that expands too much in your stomach), carbonated drinks (too much air), sugary anything, big delicious meals of any kind. basically your eating habits consist of taking 2 or 3 bites of food for 6 TINY meals a day and constant sips of liquid the whole day. not to mention the mountain of malabsorption problems with a huge list of vitamins/minerals they have and the every single day multi-vitamins they must take. a loooot of people look for a quick fix and this is the way to go. little do they realize how drastically different their lives are afterwards. ugh. its hard stuff...i'll stop preaching now. sure it works for some, but too many complications come from it.

im headed to jordans for easter and im so so excited to spend the weekend with him :) and then the next week is MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! NINE DAYS!!!! and i'll get to see my family and relax at home and eat yummy meals made by tina. i love home. and less than a month til i get to go to oxford and be reunited with all my bffaeaeae's! life is good.

time flies.

i hate how weekends go by so fast. not because i don't want to go back to work, well some of me doesn't, but because i typically have to leave people i want to be around to go back or be by myself in stupid detroit. jordan was up here for the weekend for our two year anniversary, crazy its been two years! i am for sure blessed being with him. we had a great weekend just relaxing, got to hike a little and ate delicious sushi saturday night. i love sushi! but i HATE always having to say goodbye. im not complaining about the long distance thing because i know we are blessed since we're so close, but no matter the distance, the goodbye/only seeing each other on the weekend thing is getting old. fast. i hate having to say bye to my family and friends all the time too, im not good at it. im coming to realize more and more that even though i reeeeally would like to live somewhere cool and not boring (*cough, ohio*), that being surrounded by my family and friends is even more important. the cool places will always be there, i just might have to travel to see them :)

onto another week...same stuff, same hospital. i switch next week for my clinical III. i've been here almost 3 whole months, doesn't seem like i have! Only 33 more weeks left...woohoo! oh and 19 days til my bday!!!!